Visceral laments

Under the shades
Of remembrances
Looking for the path
To the unknowed place
Waiting for a face
That could shines again
Wondering where I am
Where I should be

Once she said to me
I did not want to believe…
Finally I realize
That was the only true
She said to me
“Nothing last forever…
Everything dies”
Will be my epitaph

I am consumed
By this human existence
I hear the voices
Of an ancient time

In my mind 
Still are burning memories
Ghosts from the past
Dead but still inside
They are upon
The land I build
As dark clouds 
Hiding the rising sun

The life laugh 
In my face
I only hear
The insanity
The pain leave scars
Inside the flesh
Holding them
With ink and blood
There's no reason
To try to understand
This only will be
No matter who cares

Will I give up on them?
Will I rest again?
Are you going to be with me?
Does not matter when or where?
Until that needed end
Until I kill the pain
Until life betrays again
Until that unknowed day
When I will be in the darkness
And the silence comes back again
When nothing more will care
And I will be one of them 
No more tears
No more dreams
No more hope
No more fear

Some wounds still are open
Bleeding upon my land
And they feed the existence
Of those immortal ones
I will erase the fear
Holding inside the dreams
The worms will eat the scars
Leaved by them in the past

Unforgiven
And forgotten
Digging the walls 
The walls of grief
The roots are going inside
Searching the buried ones
To use them to grow up
And be stronger ones
They never saw
Beyond my eyes
They never heard
Beyond my words
They never felt
Beyond my hands
They never was
Beyond their presence

I will wait 
Impatiently
For that day
When I'll be hold
By their hands
Deep underground
I'll feed the worms
I'll fill the hole

The life laugh 
It leaves the scars
I'll find the rest
Inside my grave
The more I stand
In my truth
Bigger becomes
Their lies